A Teacher is Hiding Within Your Meditation 🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♂️

Before I continue this writing, I have to explain what I mean by 'meditation'.

When I meditate, I just sit somewhere and close my eyes. THAT'S IT.

I'm not trying to control my thoughts, I'm not trying to think positively. I am JUST observing, like when you lay in the grass and watch clouds float by, or like when you sit at the park and people-watch.

As I sit silently with my eyes closed and observe my thoughts, I am able to see how some of these thoughts physically cause strain in certain parts of my body. Last night, the strain was around my head. I've had this strain for months actually, and I had been starting to give up on finding a solution for this. And of course... this is EXACTLY when the solution reveals itself.

A question appeared during the meditation last night: "What if this strain lasts for the rest of your life?" 

I could honestly reply: "That's okay, I will still seek God regardless."

At the moment, there was a shift in the strain. Suddenly it wasn't so solid anymore (I can even feel my tension loosening up right now as I write this).

A bunch of similar questions appeared in the meditation afterwards.

 

"What if you never become a full time coach?" 

"What if you end up working at the same day job for the rest of your life?" 

"What if you never learn how to end unhealthy habits?" 

"What if you never become financially independent?" 

"What if you aren't able to properly take care of your family in the future?" 

"What if you end up living your entire life with debt?" 

"What if your speed of unlearning takes too long and you end up dying as an unwise old man?"

"What if you aren't able to create your own family?"

It honestly still feels a bit scary to read these questions now, but at the same time I can still reply with the same answer: "That's okay, I will still seek God regardless."

After these questions were answered, suddenly the theme changed into habits. Specifically, my diet.

For the past week and a half I have been eating a mostly vegetarian diet. The craving for meat has greatly decreased in the past 2 days, eating meat feels unnecessary at the moment. The same voice that asked me the challenging questions previously, now started to say: "Notice how your love for animals made it easy to stop consuming meat. Could it be possible that love can you help you to end other habits as well?"

It felt so clear that the answer was: YES.

A few seconds after this realization, my 30 minute timer went off and my meditation was over. I turned off the timer and sat in silence again, but it was clear that the dialogue was now over. 

(I have also heard this voice during a short DMT trip last year. In the trip the voice said: "You know you don't have to do DMT to communicate with me right?")

Have you experienced anything like this before?