The Inner Worrier

I've been feeling a tension behind my eyes, around the base of my nose and at the base if my head where it connects to the spine. I didn't know what to make of it, so I've just been observing this tension for a few weeks. I can feel it shifting around as I write this. It feels like it is reactive, like it has a mind of its own. It can get triggered, unlike ChatGPT.

My gut says that this tension is connected to fear, anxiety, worry. It's that part of me that is still learning to trust, to surrender, to have faith.

It's so beautiful to watch it give up over and over again. Worrying feels optional now, yet at the same time a part of me is on "auto-pilot worry mode". All I can do is provide a safe space for this auto-pilot mode to see its own paradox and relax.

I guess a powerful way to learn faith is to be confronted with crippling fear and anxiety. As I write this, the anxiety is ebbing and flowing like ocean water. It's so beautiful...