Visualizing a Conversation Between SP and I

For those who are unfamiliar with the meaning of 'SP' it means 'specific person'. This is often used in the context of attracting your 'SP'. This being said, one should be really careful about which SP attraction coach one listens to. Some can actually be accidentally toxic and be leading you towards total failure. One coach that I do trust is @dream.with.joy on Instagram. I trust her because I feel that she has found the 'pattern'. What is the 'pattern'? That topic is for another day.

Ok let's set the context for this conversation, hmm... let's say we have finally met up in person after a few months. We have had a chill vegetarian dinner, and we're about to finish up and go back to doing whatever else we had each planned to do for the rest of the evening.

Me: Hey so you know, I had actually meant to talk to you about something specific tonight.

SP: Yeah? And what's that?

Me: I had originally planned to come here and tell you how I'd do literally anything to repair our relationship. I was gonna give you examples of things that I would do. I was even gonna get on my knees in this restaurant if I had to. And actually, I still want to do these things! But I feel that there is something else that must be said as well.

SP: Yeah? And what's that?

Me: That I had to experience all the chaos of this year, to know what it means to love. How to love myself, how to love others, how to love you. It makes me wonder, have I ever even loved in the past? Or was I always expecting something from someone like a transaction? Have I ever just straight up loved unconditionally? I feel that I am learning that skill now, and there seems to be no finish line.

SP: Okay, so why are you sharing this with me now?

Me: What I am trying to say is... I believe that it is possible for me to learn to be happy on my own. I truly believe that. And at the same time, when I visualize spending the rest of my finite life with you it feels like something that I would GLADLY do. If you think there is even a 0.1% chance that we can make it work, I'LL TAKE IT. I would be able to be already happy while we are rebuilding the relationship, I wouldn't be waiting until it has been rebuilt to allow myself to be happy. I will no longer be expecting you to make me happy, that was one of the biggest mistakes of my life and one that I had to learn to correct the hard way. Another one of my huge miscalculations was the belief that relationships can magically survive for long-term if the 2 people are "right" for each other. Now I know that this belief is totally wrong, and relationships can only survive long-term if both partners COMMIT to keeping the connection alive and having each others backs until death. Because of my huge mistakes this year, I have also learned huge lessons. I genuinely feel that now I am someone who can make a long-term relationship not only work but FLOURISH. I can genuinely foresee myself being a great husband and father in the future (in the past it was just a hunch). I'm not saying that I'm perfect now, I'm saying that I'm in a phase of my life where I am capable of successfully fulfilling the role of 'life partner' (and I will undoubtedly continue improving this skill until the day I die). When I imagine myself building this lifelong journey with you, it feels right in my heart.

AND at the same time, if you wish to continue your life without me... I know I'll be okay. Even if if I don't know exactly how, I do know that I would be able to find a way. I am no longer expecting you to make me feel okay. Ideally I would love to spend the rest of my life sharing my good vibes with you while I watch you evolve and develop over the years, until of course we run out of time in this metaverse and we continue with the next phase (whatever that is). I've decided to live until 2086, this makes the end of my life feel so much closer. And that's actually a GOOD thing because now I can more clearly decide EX ACTLY how I want to spend my remaining years. And when I visualize spending my remaining years with you, it feels like something I would GLADLY do. When my time would come to die, I know I would have no regrets about having lived a life with you. I would feel thankful to life for even letting me experience that.

AND AT THE SAME TIME,

If you decide to continue your life without me, I know I'll be okay.

I don't know exactly what I would do if that were to happen, but I know that intuition would guide me in that situation.

I've said what I needed to say. 

Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for being part of my journey. Thank you for triggering my karma, because it allowed me to finally be able to heal it and this will ultimately be beneficial for my future family. Thank you for being you.

I don't expect you to say anything really, I just wanna say thanks for listening to what I had to say. This is for you.

*Gives gift*

This is to wish you a great life-journey full of meaning and happiness, on whichever path you choose to take.

*He smiles with teary eyes, and she sits there trying to process everything she just heard. The waiter is thinking like, "Uhh... should I offer them dessert?"*