Annoying Repeating Question in My Mind

 An annoying question has been repeating in my mind. Why is anything happening? Why does existence exist?

Intellectually I know that this question is a trap and that it will exhaust me, however my mind keeps asking it on auto-pilot. And it IS exhausting. And I think it might even become dangerous.

The more answers I find, the more questions appear. Sounds familiar, right? I've been caught in a hamster wheel.

What can I do to help my mind to surrender and to go with the flow of life?

It feels like tons of mud had been thrown on me, and so many insights that I've learned throughout the years are now fuzzy and unclear. It's a really odd feeling honestly.